Today I turn 42 and I am perfectly happy with that. Last year, when I turned 41 I had a hard time for some reason, like I was getting too old. This year though, I am going into 42 with a different outlook on aging and feeling more confident than I ever have in all aspects of my life. When I was in my 20s I had no clue what I was doing, I had no idea what paying a mortgage meant, I complained about not being skinny but would eat Taco Bell every weekend, thought Vodka was the greatest invention ever, and my biggest concern was what I was doing that weekend. I would stay up all night and sleep all day. Then came my 30s, I started to actually get serious about my career, kind of started to understand what paying bills meant, still thought vodka was the greatest invention ever, moved in with a few roommates and then moved out. Bought a house only to figure out I had no idea how to actually deal with a house. Eventually met Nathan, got married, tried forever to have a baby and finally had our little miracle child London. Now that I am in my 40s I feel like I am finally figuring things out a bit. I feel so much more confident and healthy than I used to, I try to eat clean as much as possible, work out at least 4 days a week, and no longer think Vodka is the greatest invention ever. Now, I prefer to have ONE glass of wine at dinner and then go to sleep. I am no longer concerned about being the “skinniest” but more concerned about being the “healthiest.” I am no longer concerned about what the “in” crowd is doing or keeping up with the “jonses because these days the only crowd I care to please are my loved ones. I have learned quality is always better over quantity in all aspects of my life. I feel that being kind to everyone and treating everyone including myself with respect and dignity is the best thing I could ever teach my child. I have also learned that self worth is all about loving yourself and what you see in the mirror everyday. It isn’t about how many likes or followers you have on social media, but how you feel inside about yourself. It’s taken 42 years to get here but there isn’t any other place I’d rather be right now.